Senandung Semalam.

It's been a long time, where I have not been to the rice field where it was my hometown. Yeah, two days ago, I just did. The rice field was so wide and gold. But I didn't bring my camera, pfft. Wasted. (no no not my bad phone).
When I was a kid, there used to be a lot of fishes in a bank beside the rice field or what you call, the paddy field. Today, the banks got larger but there wasn't any fishes. It is said there were poisoned by pesticides that was drained down to the bank from the paddy during raining season.

However so, it was really to feel the winds passing by you. It was just relaxing. Back then when the paddy field was dry, we played the traditional wau and flew really high. Since the wind was strong, so it was pretty fun.

Our life is really full of crossroads.

You just don't know where they could have lead you. Or you become profuse which one you should chose. We had a hard time to think or decide, as it would affect our own future probably. But what I specify about isn't necessarily on education. What I scope about on is life on its own, generally.
You ever thought about what you really wanted to become? Have your eyes close for a second, or just imagine. What can you become in the next 20 years? Who knew. Maybe I would sound like an old man saying this, but it is better to realize it in a younger age. It is better that way because we would have minimize the mistakes we would do.

Hold on for a second. One thing we must realize is that we are humans. We made mistakes. Be it stupid, bold or clever one, but nobody would run away from it.
There is a Japanese proverb have said "We learn little from victory. Much from defeat." Meaning we constantly know that success or to overcome something is to go through pain, shame, awkwardness and defeat of mistakes.
Nevertheless that, should we never use the excuse and the saying "Humans are not perfect." Because generally we do have limitations. But "making" a limitations by saying "I cannot do it" or "I feel I cannot do so" for indefinite reasons is something unacceptable.
Humans could do extraordinary things. It's just that we didn't know it any better, to make the full use of it. And all it starts from is the opportunity then trying to do it.

Returning to what I really what to talk about is crossroads. We actually do have choices. But probably we just couldn't see it.
When we were enjoying with our friends, do we really know that one day they will forget or leave us?
We never knew what have they said. Probably it would cause a little uneasiness to us.
When we love someone from the opposite gender, do we actually know when the he or she will never follow your shadow anymore?
When we knew the love was not for you or that person, do we accept the truth?
It is bitter truth. There are many hidden things in the world people hides their thoughts, we do not know.

So why run away from troubles you went through and avoid from knowing the truth? Everything is a gamble. Either you win or loss, you started the game.
In other words, strength is what we need to face up the next day challenge. Don't be afraid to try something or making mistakes and don't be afraid of what's coming out. Accepting may took time. But never back down. The moment you fall, you know that you have to stand up back.

That's all for today for I've thought. I wrote this so you could become happy and have a happier life. I myself too, made mistakes. I wrote for myself and everyone.

;)
Asyraf Amir. 2012.

Sky.

"陽 の あ た り 場 所 に 出 て 両 手 を 広 げ て み た な ら あ の 空 越 え て ゆ け る か な"

"If I go to a place where the sun shines and spreading both of my arms out, I wonder if I can go beyond the sky."

- "YUI - LIFE" lyrics.

I noticed that I had so many typos on the last post just now. haha. Sorry, it was undetected previously. I was kinda rushing for typing it though. 

I feel the tranquillity over hometown haha. But I'm just like anyone of you, died without internet. I'd probably had killed myself with boredom. But hey, I'd like to say it wasn't that bad, but like usual. Mega hot. Feels like you're in a microwave. haha.

But evenings, are the best. Riding up motorcycle, feeling the wind blowing to your face was like the best thing you've done by yourself. No pictures because I was with myself. haha. :DD

The more you go with speed, the more merrier it is. And yeah, that's why I put the quote there. 

Seeing the the Strait of Malacca was great. It's just 10 minutes drive or ride from my hometown there. Yeah it was awesome. Enjoyed the view of it. ;)

Asyraf Amir. 2012.

Beautiful Life.

I kinda had a hard time writing this. I twirled my pencil a lot of times to think, trying to remember and stuff. At first I tried off writing this on with a pen before publishing it. But a pencil would do fine I guess.

I have nothing to tell other than this. If I wrote other things, it would look too awkward. But I told myself it would be the best if I write it because these things are precious as gold.
And yeah, like gold. As times and years passes by, the prices changes but usually it would be expensive.

Like memories. As times and years passers by it gels old but something that is valuable.

Goodbyes.

We would always laugh, tease, name call or whatever we would do to our friends. But we never thought about one day, we would wave at each other saying goodbye. Possibly fading from our lives and never be seen again.

There we continue to reminisce how nice it was living under the sun. How that happy and sad times are churned  into a feeling what you called "missing someone".

We live a life, in a world that spins. That evolves around with choices we made and our dreams ahead.
Those happy momentoes that we spent with our friends, actually do have a "time". A "time" where it chases you. A "time" where it scares you. A "time" where it challenges you.

Have you ever thought of putting a cork on the middle of the hourglass? (The countdown clock where they got sand on them?)
Have you ever thought of stopping the "time"?
More accurately; Have you ever wish watching a youtube or video or movie with limitless amount of time so it plays only good things you loved?

But this is life. One thing you never realized in your life is that you never realized you stood up to the "time".

You never realized, you won quite a number of good times in your life. It was probably because of your friends and family for that, standing behind you.

But the price you have to pay was huge.
Sweat, tears or probably blood. Literally.
But you don't cry because you believe you are strong. You believe tears gets drier when you are further away from your loved ones. Perhaps that would be your family or friends.
The waves gets tougher when you're far apart from them. But the only thing on your mind was their pictures. Probably the picture of the one you loved smiles at you, you began to have strength to do your best in everything you do.

It didn't matter if that person is far or never be seen again in your life.
What matters is it left a legacy in your life.

Because you were alone, and probably they were 3 years ago from your memories.
It didn't matter if they remember you or not. They have lived. You should be grateful.

When I see my friends pictures of their school life or hanging out, I used to say how I wished I was there. I could still imagine how loud have they talked, nor how big have they laughed.
But I said no then, I was grateful how happy they were, how did they cherish their times and how ever broader their smile without me.
A farewell, has its price after all. I can do nothing but smiled because they had grow to become something of they dreamed of I guess. You can't blame them for not remembering you. People changed, places changed, everything changed. You would probably be using that super giant computer to access facebook if computer hadn't then changed. So it is, comparable to people. I can do nothing but smile.

Perhaps one way is to remember them forever in your life? If a lot of people do that, it'll be vice versa. Everyone remembers everyone.

I missed my brothers in RMC much. Each time I looked at the pictures, I just wonder how the hell I went through these hellish times. Friends really did meant more than just its words when you go through harsh times. There is a saying, "Boys will be boys." And I think you would've knew what do boys do. From the jungles and to everywhere we stepped, we stand together. Nobody, but us. I love it how we fought for ourselves and how we challenged the whole world. I love it how we stand together proudly. We are from the few, the proud. Just us.

As for now, that is all my story. I have waved lots of goodbyes and farewells to a lot of people. And so will you. I have befriended with lots of people all over around the world and I've seen so much goodbye and farewells.
I wrote this because everyone does miss everything that they have left.
I'm telling you something, you see a hell lots of changes of things in youth life. I guessed I have seen only a little. And probably so do you. What more could've show up from these years then?
Everything has its meaning. I hope you have a better life and a much pleasant one.

Asyraf Amir. 2012.

Blog History.

Hello, kids. You might wanna know some stuff about this blog. You really wanna know?

Yeah initially I was going to post something more inspiring, but I decided to put that a little later. It's long. This one would be, short I guess? We'll see how far my fingers can tap these keyboards. ;))

The year was, 2007. "Blog? You gotta be kidding me. You rant here and there on the net and bark onto other people. And you say that's good? You trolling?" 

Yeah I thought of it, something like that. Actually I started to blog since 2005, but it wasn't on blogger. It was on a popular french site called SKYROCK. Yeah I joined them because it's a cool name, right? haha. Most of them used it. 

Then it came to a stop when less people used them and I would be the sole person who rants some stuff without knowing anyone around haha. That would be too mundane. 

I came to know about blogger in 2007, but I didn't know what to write. In the end it only came up with one post. Nothing much then. I thought it was, mundane too. 

I used to write little things there and it was too awkward. I delete it haha.

I used to write things in an old book, which I used to scrap some stuff over there. It's not a diary. It's just some random stuff, like the one you used it for jotting down notes. That includes one of my writings, songs and everything, handwritten with pencil. Sometimes with pen. Yeah people used to read it for curiosity inside there. Then blog become something to look at and share thoughts, like twitter. haha. But why would anyone blabber some stuff over there? I thought it was useless.
But I thought again, whatever. I decided to give a try to write something that people would look over and feel good. I would love to see people smile just because of a few words from here. Especially. Well yeah. haha.
Then yeah, I opened my blog in the end of 2009. And I put what I used to write on the old book to there. ;)

Aww, I failed to finished this blog before 0000H before 2nd February. haha. never mind. We'll skip next post, I'll write another one. ;))

Asyraf Amir. 2011.

The Tank Man.

I was really dilemma which one should I put to write. But gracefully after thinking about it long time, I will now write both of them haha. Ooh this night they fired up infinite amount of fireworks. Can't fall asleep but here's a story. Fired up because of the "New Lunar Year", I guess? Well, least to say people that are HAPPY. And it's fine that way. ;))

The Tank Man.

Shocks you? :OO

Yeah literally. I remember learning about it in humanities class, like 5 years ago? Just few days ago, I saw the pictures again on TV. haha. I know, it's like wars and whut? But yeah, as long as it's a story, it is something you have to know. ;))

The guy, is called "Tank Man". Or the media calls him, "Unknown Rebel/Unknown Tank Man". 

June 5th, 1989. It was the date where Tiananmen Square protest erupted. It was known the causes of the protest are inflation, political corruption and stuff. China was progressing itself into an economic reforms, until inflation rises and problems, causing rifts in the country.
The man appeared literally in front of the tank, appearing to stop the tank from advancing. After repeatedly attempting to move around instead of crushing the man, the tank stops. As the tank stops, he gestured with his bags on his hand. He then climbed atop to the tank and seems to have a short conversation with the tank crew member's from the hatch after it was opened by the tank commander.
Shortly after that, he was pulled away by two men in blue attire and they disappeared with him into a nearby crowd.

But this guy got guts. After the incident, it became a hit that a TIME magazine named him as "TIME 100: The Most Important People of the Century." It became a symbolic thing, for standing up the rights you earned. He became a legacy. I guess he knew he would put himself into death sentence, for doing so. But hell yeah, he's brave. The image becomes an icon for the protest itself.

Though there were numerous things they wrote about him. Some say he settled 3 years and 9 months after the incident. He then moves to Taiwan. Some even say he was shot by firing squad.

His whereabouts now, are unknown. 

Asyraf Amir. 2012.

ORANGES & Curiosity.

Wah. Normally you see oranges filling up all over the streets and stuff like firecrackers during Chinese New Year. Or any other festivals you see in Malaysia.

There wasn't anything. :((
(Yeah but there was on other streets where they got loads of people.)

But hell yeah. Don't you miss playing those firecrackers, lighting up some "thunder-whut" thing (thunderclap, I guess)? When it shoots up to the sky, they boom like one of those explosions you see on movies.

Who doesn't miss their childhood times? Those times are the times where you still learn how to make your footsteps carefully placed on earth. You wouldn't care what was happening outside. All what you care, is you!
You know, the hardest thing that you could ever solved when you were a kid was deciding what to build with lego blocks. Now comes with millions of problems we might not know by ourselves.

Back at hometown, I rode motorcycle, go fishing at seaside. And basically that goes on and on. With repetition. Still, can't live without the internet haha! Well, still. Can't expect any coverage lines in a village. They go on and off sometimes if it's available. haha.

Talk more? See what I could write.
Asyraf Amir. 2012.

Trainways and Words.

Hello, Malaysia. Once upon a time, in Malaysia.

Yeah, you wanna know one fact? I missed the train 5 times streak, for a weak. Isn't that awesome? 

The train was like, going to come in a minute. So I dash to ticket counter and my face was like that meme, "challenge accepted." haha. It appears the ticket counter didn't open. The machine when they handed out those tokens and tickets ain't working/accept coins only. I was like "oh shite. the train is gonna leave sooner." Yeah, it appears the guy went to toilet for a while and his face was like "whut man" when I ask him the ticket or hell yeah. Swoosh, the train left. So that made my 5th time. Of missing the train. Yeah. Close enough. 

Yeah, I Like. I know it sounds cynical or comical. But it's a fact. haha. :D

Oh yes balik jangan cerita. I felt like I've just came out from a hot sauna with lots of people in it. haha. :OO

So, what up? Today I met so much people, even the ones I don't really remember them, they were like "oh hell yeah, I do know you mate!" That happened around, I don't know. Just a lot haha. Yeah, friday prayers. Chat up with cool friend, kacau there and here. Met my batch mates from RMC and it appears he's searching for a job too. It's just awesome. I guess all the train stories worth it. ;))

Things are pretty fast when it comes to time, right? There's so many changes.

 Wooh. The quality sucked. But not like I got those super big camera DSLR I bet. But hey you there, have fun when you're not working anymore. Great times. ;)) Najah & Farhana, Hakeem somehow likes it if I upload this on facebook. Nah, I decide to put on my blog instead. ;)

EDIT: I took out the close enough meme. And add some stuff, if you notice. ;))

Asyraf Amir. 2012.